Ok, I'm Losing It !

Last post got too long so I started a new one.

I started my "diet" again today. There was a full-length mirror in that hotel room yesterday and I've got me a horrid picture of what my body REALLY looks like. NOT a pretty sight! Tonight when I was tempted to munch on something, just whipped out my cell phone (took pic with my cell) and stared at it....worked like a charm! (VBG!) I had some very tempting situations today also and I'm happy to say I made the right choices! Hannah very innocently came up to inform me that I had a candybar up in the pantry, it's been there for a couple of weeks now. It was hard since I had not eaten yet and it was almost lunchtime. Then, ended up taking the kids to Wendy's for dinner. Those fries were calling my name but I chose my salad instead. I was even tempted to get the salad....with a small order of fries! I'm so bad I know!

Talked with my step-momma tonight. Me and Hailey are going to be flying up there sometime in late July or early August to visit them and my Grandma. Not sure how long my Gram is going to live, so I want to make sure I get to see her, and let her meet Hailey. Becky, wanna come up and see me??? I'll be there a Thurs-Sunday so maybe that Saturday? I'm totally excited, I miss my daddy! I'm also hoping to lose at least 15-20 lbs by then. We'll see since I'm not going to be hitting the gym. Can't afford it right now...I know, I know, I can always go walking, but it's too stinkin' hot outside.

I finally told Michael about my idea about becoming a photographer. I've tried so many "work-at-home" things that he's been pretty much jaded by it, and wouldn't even entertain any of my ideas since. He actually had a better reaction than I thought he would this time! We actually discussed details of what I was thinking a little. We kept getting interupted by kids, and haven't been able to talk since. I'm going to keep researching things and get it all together, keep praying about it, and we'll see where this crazy idea goes. Maybe it'll stay just that, a crazy idea in my head, but maybe it'll turn into something. This idea just kindof came out of nowhere. Not sure if it's from God or from that pesky "frustrated artist lady" who keeps nagging me from time to time. We'll see:)

Ok, well hubby STILL isn't home, it's 11:48pm. I'm gonna get off this thing though and read my book, journal, and pray. Goodnight!