11.29.2006

Ok, i'm gonna chalk last night's tirade to hormones. I am feeling alot more sane now. I'm still a little stressed over it all, but it's her problem(s) not mine and I need to remember that. I'm just not sure what's going to happen if she ends up losing her apartment. It seems like my family's left all this up to me. If she ends up homeless, guess where she's coming. I don't mind helping her if she truly needs it but this is different and I'm lost as to what to do. So again, I apologize for last night's rant.

Today I had to take Hannah to her piano lesson. I always enjoy visiting with my friend from church. After that we headed to the Kia dealership so that I could check on a part that I needed to fix one of the kids' windows in the back. One of my kids, who will remain nameless, decided one day that he wanted his window open. Instead of pushing the button to open it, he just pushed the window itself and some kindof nut thing popped off the outside of the window. I was worried that I was gonna have to pay for a whole new mechanical thing but ended up just being able to buy the nut and a washer for $1.50. I totally pulled a joke on hubby when he called earlier though. I told him that I took the van to get fixed. He asked how much it costed and I told him "One fifty." He of course thought I meant $150.00 and I could sense the tension in his voice. I'm trying of course to keep from giggling. He made peace with the cost as we would've had to pay for it sometime anyways. I then proceeded to tell him "One dollar and fifty cents." You could almost hear the "shewww" in his head. That totally made my day:) I did tell him though, that I wished he was home (from Ca) so that I could see that vein actually throbbing in his forehead, but had fun with it nonetheless:) I'm easily amused...

We stopped at Walmart tonight to get supplies to make our "pokey pine" (pinecone) Christmas trees. We bought some spray paint and some glitter and also some beads to glue on as "ornaments". I will post pics when we get done with those.

We got our stockings hung up yesterday, not sure if I posted that last night or not. The kids were walking around talking about "bean stalks" and I assumed they meant the story of Jack and the Bean Stalk, I really wasn't listening too closely. Turns out they were talking about their STOCKINGS and they thought they were called bean stalks for some reason...

Hubby called me earlier and asked what I thought about moving to San Diego. I guess he's in love with it there. I'm supposed to research on the internet tonight the cost of living, rent, etc. I always swore that I would NEVER live in California but for some reason I'm "O.K." with it right now. We'll see where this train goes....

Jen

11.28.2006

Today was kindof crazy. We spent a good part of the day cleaning house. I sat down to "rest" while Hannah made lunch for herself and the boys (such a sweetie she is!). I ended up falling asleep staring at the Christmas tree. Woke up 2 hours later and scurried to start getting everyone ready to leave for AWANA tonight. We went to Denny's for dinner (bad girl, I know!) and I took Mom with us. I'm now incredibly stressed out.

She's decided that her new job isn't going to pay enough and is looking for another one. I just don't understand WHAT is going on with her. She even mentioned moving back to Washington since she's still in transition. With WHAT money?!?! That's going to fix WHAT??? She was over on Friday and hinting that she was needing to borrow money "just until her new job started". I just didn't say anything. She's not paid back any of the other money that people have lent her, she waited to look for a job even when she promised certain people that she would get one quickly to pay them back, she's not made steps to lower her standard of living so that she can survive and ultimately get ahead, she's waited until she's totally broke to even start looking for a job. Why would I want to lend her money that my husband, who works 60+ hours a week, works HARD for??? Besides, IF I WAS to lend her money, it would be our "Disneyland Christmas" money and that wouldn't be right to do to our kids. Right now I just want to SCREAM!!! I just don't understand! I don't know what to do or how to fix this situation. Do I need to just sit back and let God deal with her and let her pay the consequences for the choices she's making? I JUST DON'T KNOW!!! I do know that I'm so sick of drama. Right now I'm just wishing we were moving already. It was so much nicer to be "removed" from the situation and just be an ear to listen. Now, I'm in the middle of the situation and I'm really not happy about it, in fact, I'm extremely angry and resentful right now. I'm finding it really hard to deal with this correctly. If anyone has ANY advice for me, please throw some my way. I'm at my wit's end....

Jen

11.27.2006

Friday:
Hubby took Hannah and Jacob Christmas shopping. They hit some of the "all day" sales but didn't bother with the early morning thing. Hubby spoiled me and I got a ton of jar candles that were on sale buy 1 get 2 free.
After they got home, we headed to the mall to watch a movie. We ended up seeing Santa Clause 3. It was pretty good, well what I saw of it. I ended up falling asleep periodically.

Saturday:
We headed to the mall again. A different one. I was on a quest to get some maternity shirts with regular sleeves and that fit me better. I picked up 3 tshirts. I also was on the search for a bra but had no luck in that dept. I'm back to ordering off the internet for that.....
We also picked up the kids' Christmas Pj's at the Disney Outlet Store. They all got "Incredibles" jammies. We figured we'd go with a Disney theme this year since we're going to Disneyland for Christmas.
Saturday night we put up our tree, complete with our Lionel train set that Grampy bought for the kids last year. We bought a "Christmas 2006" car to go on it and thinking that we'll try to make that a yearly tradition. I'll post pics of it later.

Sunday:
After church we came home and took naps:) Hubby helped me get the laundry folded and I went to Walmart and picked up some travel-sized stuff for hubby's trip to San Diego this week. I also picked up mine and hubby's Christmas jammies (not Disney but color coordinated) as well as a "big boy" Bible for Jacob and Matthew. They've both been really responsible in remembering to bring their little Bibles, so I thought I'd reward that and encourage it by giving them "big boy" Bibles. You should have seen the smiles on their faces:) They've both been carrying them around all day and Jacob (4 yo) has been diligently trying to find John 3:16 in there.

Monday:
Hubby left for Ca. this morning. I hate when he leaves. I start worrying about things that I never even think about otherwise. I kept myself up last night thinking that "if something happens to him, what would I do about this or what would I do about that?". "All the bills are paid, but how far ahead?". "What kindof job could I get to support 5 children?". Etc.....I'm fine now but that night before always keeps me up:) Today I've been trying to spring clean the house. Seems like I'm always doing that. With 4 littles I guess the house just always needs "deep cleaning". Oh, I repotted/planted my houseplants today! I've been trying to do that for over a month now. I got my ultrasound scheduled for December 11th. I'll be 18 weeks then so I'm hoping we can tell what the baby is! I might end up rescheduling for a week or two later. Well, that's it in my pretty boring life. Seems like everyone else's blogs are so interesting and mine seems so boring!

Jen

11.24.2006

My Dr. appt on Wednesday went pretty good. My Dr. is still not happy about my weight gain (17lbs), so of course that stresses me out. I'm really trying not to obsess over it and tell myself that this is just another "phase" in my life and that I'm not going to be overweight forever--but it's hard. I do need to get some kind of excercise but it just seems so daunting to me. I jokingly told hubby the other night, "I would excercise if it wasn't so much WORK!". LOL At least my appetite will start dwindling once the baby starts taking up more room. Maybe that's how I've managed to only gain around 20-30lbs before???

The baby's heartbeat yesterday was in the 140's. It's a boy, I'm sure of it now;) With Hannah her heartbeat was always in the 160's and each of the boys was slower and in the 140's most of the time. We'll see!

Jen
Yesterday was a pretty good day. I was tired because I stayed up late the night before cooking/baking but it was a good day anyways. We got to fellowship with a family from church that we've never socialized with aside from church. Me and the other lady have alot in common. I joked once when we were talking recipes that we are both "free spirits". We NEVER use a recipe unless we are baking and need exact measurements for it to come out right. Anyways, we had a good time.

The turkey roaster thing that I bought the other night turned out to be an AMAZING little appliance. We had the juiciest most yummy turkey we've ever had and it cooked incredibly fast as well. I soaked the turkey the day before in some salt water in the sink, put minced garlic under the skin, brushed olive oil on the skin and then sprinkled season salt over the top. It cooked in the roaster on 350º for 1 1/2 hours (12 1/2 lbs) and came out beautifully:) The little booklet that came with the roaster said it would need approx. 2 1/2 hours to cook and I was suprised when I went to put some butter on it that it was done. I then cut it up and put it in a crockpot with some of the juices to keep it hot until we got to our friend's house and ate.

I've been able to stick with the menu thing this week so far. We actually had leftovers on Wednesday instead of a whole new meal but at least we didn't eat out:) I was hoping to have more leftovers from yesterday for tonight, but it looks like I'll be cooking something tonight.

Jen

11.22.2006

Last night we had a good night at awana. The leader was gone and hubby filled in to do the "lesson/devotional" for the kids. He did a good job but I realized last night that some people are just natural "teachers" and others (like me!!) are just not. When I was sitting in on a couple of the 2's and 3's Sunday school sessions before I took over, I saw what a good teacher my Pastor's wife is. I thought "Awww, this will be a piece of cake!". Since then, every week it feels like a struggle for me. Those extra things that naturally come to a "teacher's" mind just don't come so easily for me. Anyways, just something I'm pondering about myself now. I know God gave me other talents and I'm fine with that, I'm just thinking about how much "easier" it would be to parent and homeschool *if* I was a natural teacher....well, maybe not easier but I guess I would *be* a better parent or teacher.

Today I have an appointment with the OB. I'm excited because I'm supposed to hear the heartbeat today for the first time. I'm also excited as this means in 4 more weeks we have the *BIG* ultrasound and hopefully find out who's joining us in May. What a great Christmas present that will be huh?

Hubby just stopped by. He's on his way to a "jobsite" to take a turkey dinner to his employees working down there. Alot of them are from out of state and are away from their families right now and some just don't have families. After he gets done there he comes home so I can go to my appt. "in peace". I remember the days when he could come with me and share in all this pg "wonder". Now I find it more wonderful to actually be able to talk to the Dr. without being interrupted or telling someone to "don't touch that!". I WILL somehow arrange for him and at least Hannah to come the ultrasound next month.

A couple of comments left yesterday made me realize that I didn't include "how" I'm feeling. I'm sorry! I'm feeling GREAT! I've been slowly cleaning parts of the house this week in preparation for company coming at Christmas. Yesterday I totally cleaned and organized the pantry. I started on the laundry room but ran out of time, so I'll finish that today. I plan on getting all the dishes washed and all the extra clutter out of the kitchen. We have a pretty long counter that runs behind the sink and everyone has decided that that's the place to put something when you don't know what else to do with it. I'm putting a stop to that:) I've also got some baby things set aside in a corner by the kitchen table that I need to go through and pack away. Well, now I'm rambling. Let's just say I'm working on the odds'n'ends stuff that's been driving me crazy.

We got invited over to someone's house for Thanksgiving and we took them up on their offer. There will be 4 different families there (including ours). I'm still cooking up most of my menu to take over there. In fact, the only thing I'm not making are the mashed potatoes and gravy. Last night I bought this cool roasting pan/crockpot thing at Target that they had on sale. I figured it would fix our "only room in the oven for 1 turkey" problem as well as keep it warm while everything else is going on. The "men" are taking the kids on a small hike tomorrow while us women cook. Should be a good day:)

Jen

11.21.2006

We've been eating out quite a bit lately out of convenience. I've made it a goal of mine to cook at least 12 of the 14 meals every two weeks. I'm going to post my menu here hoping it will give me SOME kindof accountability. I'm also trying to eat healthier and more natural, I'm hoping to get the hang of it quickly. Here's our menu for the next 11 days.

Tuesday: Stir Fry
Wednesday: De'etta's Beef Stroganoff and a green salad
Thursday: Turkey Day!
Friday: Leftovers
Saturday: Enchiladas and mexican rice
Sunday: Roasted chicken, roasted potatoes, and a veggie

Monday: De'Etta's Chicken Divan and a salad
Tuesday: Spaghetti and a veggie
Wednesday: Leftovers
Thursday: Taco soup and a salad
Friday: Eat out (picking hubby up from airport)

Wish me luck! Alot of these are new recipes for me and I'm also using some things that are new as well.

Here are some updates. I've not been on the internet much at all, and really not been motivated to blog. Forgive me:)


First thing's first, Mom got that job that she wanted yesterday!!! She doesn't start for two weeks, which is kindof rough moneywise, but it's a GREAT thing none the less!


Hannah had her sewing contest judging and awards luncheon on Saturday and she won 2nd place for the Preteens division!


She did the skirt by herself and me and mom did the vest for her.

She won 4 yards of wool fabric and a sewing kit and giftbag FULL of stuff!

It was a great day. She's already dreaming about next year....we might be in Albuquerque by then, but she can dream for now.

We've been keeping up with school. Still have not made a decision about Brandon's curriculum but will soon. He's really motivated to learn to read now so I'm going to try and use that momentum...

I got my Thanksgiving menu done yesterday, actually the next two weeks' worth or meals, and then went grocery shopping last night. I'm going to attempt to make my own pies this year, should be interesting! De'Etta, I'm going to do your honey-pecan pie and I'm also going to do a chocolate pudding w/bananas and whipped cream pie for my mom and hubby. Here's what our Thanksgiving looks like this year:

Veggie plate,black olives,pickles,crackers, etc. w/ranch dip while dinner cooks

Turkey

Mashed potatoes and gravy

Apple/raisin stuffing

Greenbean Supreme

Pistachio salad

Rolls

Pecan pie

Chocolate/banana pudding pie

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!!


11.14.2006

I also forgot to share that I've been feeling the baby move a little. It's a little early as they say "quickening" starts at 16 weeks but I'm pretty sure that's what it is.

We're STILL mulling over baby names. My husband likes more modern names like McKenzie Reagann or McKenna Ryann, I like those but I just can't imagine calling my child one of those. I like the more old fashioned names like Hailey, Emilie, Abigail (Abbey), and Violette. The kids like Violette and Abbey. Violette actually seems to be taking the lead with the kids for some reason. If *I* was doing the naming myself I would pick Emilie as it's a "popular" name and all the rest of the kids have "popular" names. Oh, I also like Katie. Hubby thinks that we should name her Kathryn or something and call her Katie as it sounds too "kiddish". I countered that her name could be Katie and when she's older she can shorten it to Kate if she wants something more adult sounding. Oh, the drama of it all ;)

As for boys' names, the only one we can all agree on is Sean Alexander. Hubby is a little hesitant on the middle name as it makes it the name of a Seahawks running back or something, and hubby is a very big Seahawks fan. You'd think he'd be happy about that but he's already gotten teased about how "he got his wife to agree to that one" at work. This is a name we had picked out when we had Brandon 6 years ago, long before the famous Seahawk. Jake is still rooting for Jack "Hammer"....LOL

What are your opinions of our names, if you have any? Can you think of any new ones that you've just "always loved!". We're definately open to suggestions!

Jen ºÜº

11.13.2006

Ugh, still not feeling great. Not sure what is up though. We all just have low grade fevers and headaches....nothing else. We all slept in this morning and lounged around all day. I'm hoping we feel well enough to go to AWANA tomorrow night.

I haven't heard from Mom, I should have called her today. She was supposed to have an interview with one of the accounting partners in the firm she interviewed with last week. I'm hoping it went well.

I forgot yesterday to share my BIG drama of last week, Friday night actually. I found my first GRAY hair! AHHHH!!! I was totally stunned. I guess I wasn't expecting it until I was at least 30. I guess I'll survive though. After I have the baby I can start dying my hair again...no big deal right??? How old were you when you got your first gray hair?

We got school done today with minimal fussiness. Brandon actually did his math without any meltdowns at all. He has a meltdown over everything, not just schoolwork, and I just kindof ignore it now and push forward. It was nice to not have to do that today, he did his math happily:)

I'm still pondering over what kindof curriculum to get for him to finish out the year. I started out thinking ACE, then moved onto AO Lifepacs, now I just researched Christian Light today. They all look good for one reason or another and I just can't decide. Hubby is also getting frustrated with my curriculum jumping and wants me to "Just pick something and stick with it!". That puts even more pressure on me to make the right decision. I'll mull it over more and probably order something by the weekend. I'd also like to get something for Jacob as he is getting upset that he doesn't have his own school (workbooks) to do like the others. He's not satisfied with the ones from Walmart anymore, he wants "real school". Ok, enough rambling!


JenºÜº